Some time ago, I wrote about how I felt I had underchieved on my potential (I wrote some other things in there too about medication effects, but they are less important at the moment because I am not currently taking any psychoactive medication).

I'm still feeling a bit like that. Most of the time it's OK, because I'm too tired or busy to notice, but every now and then there will be a lull and I'll think to myself "This isn't good enough", then there'll be a brief moment of despair at how far I am away from being the valued colleague I would like to be, then I'll think fearful thoughts about how much work is involved at this late stage in rescuing my career, then I'll go back to thinking about my story instead since that's a safe haven for my mind at the moment.

In the tradition of "The Meaning of Liff" I would like to propose the word "Addingham" to mean "the vague sense that you should have done more with your life".

Posted by Dunx at March 17, 2005 10:59 AM